Thursday, January 7, 2010

I guess I can stop carrying all those pads around for now.

In the interest of totally over sharing with the Internet, I, right this minute, have a handful of pads shoved into my purse just in case I start my period. Because? after I had Sabrina, I for some reason no longer got the advance warning in the way of horrid cramps and biting Chris' head clean off for just breathing. Sadly, I think the latter is because I developed some kind of permanent PMS (some might just call it my personality, but I'm not sure). At any rate, I wanted to be prepared. With pads. Because tampons, ouch, when you barely have a period for a full day. But yet enough to ruin a pair of white pants, if you know what I mean. (And seriously, who wouldn't know what I mean? It's pretty clear.)

Why don't I need them right now?

Oh, because I'm pregnant.

I'll let you catch your breath before I move on. I'm sure this has hit you just as hard as it did me.

I'd say we were completely shocked, but to be honest, I knew a good week or so before I got the positive test. I found myself not only watching a Matthew Perry movie on Lifetime, but having to try really hard to force back the tears while watching it and that shit just is not normal.

Plus, I think I might be psychic. But that's another post altogether.

But we are shocked. I'm sure I've mentioned before that Sabrina is here thanks to IVF, and it's not like we just decided that would be fun to do...we couldn't get pregnant without it. I have some horrid eggs. The embryologist called them "small" and "brown" and even though I wasn't there, I'm certain she crinkled her nose and made a face when she said that. As if my egg quality, or lack thereof, wasn't enough to contend with, my body just likes to refuse to drop one of the small, brown mutants on a monthly basis. I didn't ovulate.

Some infertility peeps are "cured" by pregnancy. For some reason it kick starts the body and it decided to work like it's supposed to. It's not totally unheard of for someone to try for years, go through extensive treatment, finally carry a pregnancy to term and then BAM end up with a surprise shortly after. But in my situation, we - and by we I mean DOCTORS and not just the ones I have conversations with in my head, real living DOCTORS - laughed because the chances are so incredibly slim that would happen to me. With my dud eggs and all.

And because I really can't take the birth control pill unless I want to feel like shit all the time (who doesn't?), and neither of us could buy condoms without giggling uncontrollably, and we're cheap and thought and IUD would be such a waste of money...welp, here we are.

Don't get me wrong. We are thrilled. Excited. Nervous and anxious and everything wrapped up into one, but we never dreamed we would be able to give Sabrina a sibling. We were okay with "just" her. She's our everything. Sure, in an ideal world we'd be a family of four but that just wasn't in the cards for us and we were fine. There was a long period of time where we didn't think we'd have her, let alone wish for two.

For some reason, I wasn't sure if I should blog it yet. It's so very bizarre being "normal". Normally by the time I've had several blood draws, analyzed the living shit out of each of them, and had at least one ultrasound. I'll I've had is a positive home test. We go next week for our first prenatal appointment and ultrasound. I'll be about 7 weeks, they'll think I'm 8 based on my last period. But I know when I ovulated so I know how far along I really am.

Of course we're nervous about Monday, but we're trying to be mellow and not get me admitted to a mental institution this time. The chances of me having a natural, viable pregnancy are not great. But, the chances of me getting pregnant without intervention are super poor and lookey what happened there.

So until Monday....wish us luck. :) (Actually that doesn't make any sense. We'll need luck past Monday regardless of what happens. Especially since I'm going to have to start playing the lottery because I have no idea how we will afford two.)

22 comments:

Lauren said...

I am so happy for you! I know you are probably rolling your eyes right now, but seriously I am so happy! Congrats! I hope this egg was a good one! Maybe I am just happy like this bc I too am pregnant... with #3. You know, misery loves company lol. LUCK,Luck, LUCK. And for what it's worth, I totally lost my breath for a minute.

Shari said...

Congratulations!

Sending LUCK your way!

minivan soapbox said...

Holy SHIT! Congratulations! Bad Eggs my ass...Your eggs Rock!

Kendra said...

HELLO! K, that's astonishingly awesome! Hope the appointment on Monday goes well. Will you buy me a lottery ticket while you're at it? I promise to split it with you when I win!

Michelle said...

I'm so happy for you and your family. I'll be thinking about you on Monday and hoping all is well with the babe. Congrats!

Alison said...

SO amazing!!!! Congrats Katie!!

Faith, the Authoress said...

Holy CRAP! Go girl! So happy for you!

sunflowerramos said...

Congrats!!! Wishing you a H&H 9 months.

A said...

**Picking my jaw up off the ground** :o) Congratulations!!! Keeping my fingers crossed for you both on Monday and for a H&H pregnancy!!!

Stephanie said...

OMG! Congrats!! I'm so thrilled for your family!

The GVZ's said...

Amazing!

Jess said...

So happy for you Katie!!!!

Ava said...

You KNOW I'm thrilled for you!

Wishing you lots of luck in the months ahead. I know the significance of your next u/s as well, so I'm crossing my fingers extra special for that one too.

saundra said...

Woo Hoo!!!
I'm so happy for you! And so going to get an IUD next week! My story is very similar to yours...

Charmaine said...

SHUT.THE.DOOR! Congrats! Congrats! Congrats!

KK @ Running Through Life said...

A great big CONGRATS and good luck on Monday!!!!

KandiB said...

This is my secret dream. Well...not really that secret. It's a well known dream.

I have the same crap eggs and never ovulate, too.

Send some fairy fertility dust my way, lady! Maybe I'll start carrying some pads in my purse. That'll do it.

CONGRATS!!! yay! Woop woop!

Mason's Mommy said...

SHUT UP! GET OUT! and come over here for a big ol' hug! Wonderful, wonderful news!

Mommy Moreno said...

How are you feeling?!?!

janessa said...

awesome, awesome, AWESOME! Congrats!

Hanneke Nelson said...

Congratulations! And Good Luck for Monday. Although it seems to me, your luck is pretty good already.

Mom in Boyland said...

Just think of this new baby as a never ending flow of material for your blog!